Oh the Feels!

Starting over was not part of the plan. Especially with me trying to make my way through school with my goal being nursing school. Yet, Five years ago we found out we were expecting again. This was quite a shock since we had a 7 and 8 year old. We both couldn't agree more starting over was one of the best thing to happen to us later in life. I was scrubbing super dirty having played outside with his big brothers all afternoon toes, watching his bath water turn mucky, and just soaking him in. As I rinsed him off he asked if I could add Mr. Bubbles to his bath. He then calls out and asks if I could make him Mickey Mouse. That is when I take a hand full of bubbles and plop them on his head to make ears. He then stands stares and his reflection in the mirror and giggles, showing those tiny white teeth. That's when it happens, "All the Feels" come streaming into my heart in such a gush. Being an older mom with her youngest so spaced out from his siblings has its advantages. One is you tend to not fret the small stuff, he's grumpy because he wants a cupcake for breakfast? Well I know it probably has same amount of sugar then a regular muffin or even cereal so yeah I'll give him the cupcake. You seriously just take things with more stride. But for me the number one advantage is enjoying every single moment. With Z & E I enjoyed them  but never allowed myself to see that they weren't  babies anymore, in my eyes they were still so little. It wasn't until Ash was born that our eyes opened to the fact that Z & E were little boys, not babies. So we absorb every giggle, pout, tantrum, squeal and smile that we can. It wont be long before our toddler is a gruff voiced teenager saying, "Mom, I'm still hungry can I have some more?"